WHY?????

I lie here alone,
and a tear rolls down my eye.
I ask myself again and again,
why? Somebody plz tell me why?

I ask her to keep distance,
because hers I am not.
but still I cant get over her,
sometimes I miss her a lot.

She said she couldnt move on,
Lost without me she would get.
I knew she was the best there was,
the best I had ever met.

But still I could not have her,
I told her to let go.
I told her we not meant to be,
the reason I still dont know.

And now she has changed a lot,
she has evolved,has moved on.
we still the best of friends,mind you
but the feeling i think has gone.

But i think I lost something else,
along with my feelings, my life.
I think I lost the friend I had,
because of the quarrels and the strife.

I used to know her the best,
but she is now a stranger to me.
I could look into her heart then,
now in her eyes its impossible to see.

I could have told her all i had,
in my heart,in my mind.
But now I cant even speak a word,
however hard she tries to find.

I miss her a lot some days,
I feel so scared,so alone.
Sometimes when the sun shines brightly outside,
I feel freezed down to the bone.

I dont know why I left her,
dont know why miss her I do.
I had her inside my heart all along,
and I think this she herself knew.

Why do I negate myself,
when I ask her to move on.
why do I want her just the same,
when its better if she is reborn.

I know I cant have her,
then why do I always want.
Why do I envy anyone she talks to?
why do her memories haunt?

I want her to be happy,
with anyone except me.
then why is it that I get hurt,
and her,with noone else I can see.

Why do I always blame her,
for hurting me,for making me cry.
and forget the time when I was in her shoes,
and her eyes never kept dry.

She is like an angel in this world,
but no,afterall she is human.
I cant expect her to love me still,
after all that to her I have done.

I wish her luck,I care for her,
I want her to be happy, to smile.
And want myself to let her go,
to let her choose whom she thinks worthwhile.

I want to sometimes hide,
sometimes to run away.
I want to tell her all I feel,
why is it so difficult to say????

P.S. before you all start sending me condolences and feel sorry for me,just want to tell that this
isnt my story.was in a bad mood today so wrote abt something which does spoil most moods.feel a lot better.

Live life,Dont spend it

I am a little shocked,
and hurt a lot.
Because the friends who mean the world,
have stopped giving life another shot.

I talked to a friend of mine,
whos pretty close to me.
She's tense because she has got a goal,
and failure she cant bear to see.

I asked her to be happy,
to focus,to be confident and strong.
coz that is what will help her,
to finally hit the victory gong.

I asked her to stop fretting,
to stop being nervous and tense.
To face her mistakes,her weaknesses,
and stop using them as a pretence.

She stands alone,I told her,
the test is hers alone.
She has got to get strong,
coz only the best gets the bone.

Another friend of mine,
also threw the towel in.
She was upset,sad,depressed,
and had created a huge din.

I asked her to stop crying,
to stop regretting for what is gone.
I asked her to come up and rise,
to be happy again,to be reborn.

I ask all my friends and loved ones alike,
life is a precious gift.
Sadness,troubles cant see you happy,
with them,you'll always have a rift.

But you yourself are most important,
more than anyone in the world you know.
Just stop listening to others and ask your heart,
you'll know what way to go.

Others will always speak,
they will always say "WRONG YOU ARE".
But its upto you to decide,
you wanna lead or be left behind far.

Its your life,and you should lead,
whatever way you find is fit.
And bear in mind what I always say,
"Live life dont spend it".

Hope I helped someone with my view point.acknowledgements invited

Why is it always I?????????

Life has ups and downs,
and rights and lefts too.
But what I dont get about life is,
Why is it always I and not you?

'I thought you would do it,
but you broke my trust'
did you ever think about this,
how many promises you kept at first???

Its easy to find faults,
and forget about yours.
Its also easy to observe all,
when you yourself hide behind doors.

'I think you are wrong'
or 'I expected this from you'
Am I not entitled anything,
to hope that you would do??

'You shout a lot always'
or 'You get irritated pretty soon'.
but where does this all go when you,
do the same, to the moon????

'You never listen to others',
'You got like a 1000 faults'.
Come on guys,if I were perfect,
wouldnt someone close me in a vault???

People always come up and say,
'I hope,I think,I expect,I feel'.
But sometimes I too think and expect,
I too hope,and yes, I do feel.

Why doesnt one stand in front of the mirror,
and see how you turned out?
And just think once on every fault,
before you turn around and shout.

But this a vicious cycle,
me too stuck in it.
However hard I try and be wary,
I fall finally in the pit.

I go against my rules,
and preach what you must do.
And when I read what I just wrote,
all I hear is 'Shut up' or 'BOOOOOO'.

I think all can preach,
and all can tell how wrong you are.
But if you ever find how wrong your self is,
maybe then you can keep everyone at par.

However high one thinks of himself,
however proud one may feel.
But the truth remains as simple as this,
Eventually all are on an even keel.


P.S.- No offense meant and none taken.
All resemblances to any event or thought is purely in your dreams.

What to Do?????????????

Ill tell you a little story
it may not be very new,
but the point's not whats been done,
the question's what to do

People come into my life,
they appear out of the blue.
they spread joy,they laugh, they cry
they make me feel fresh and new.
and then they suddenly kill me,
with a single word or deed,
and I sit shocked and hurt,
just thinking what to do.

I have a lot of friends,
ok,I have a few.
I can trust them with my life,
even if they dont have a clue.
But even they dont stand by always,
they take to the other court,
while I stand alone facing the music,
thinking as to what to do.

Its not worth taking names,not worth
beating them black and blue.
I just want to have someone,
someone who said"Him, I knew".
Someone who reads me over,
and gives me a pat on the shoulder,
and stays with me when I am alone,
and tells me what to do.

No doubt I got great friends,
no offense meant,its true.
I would find it hard to live,
if it hadnt been for you.
But this is an ode to all those,
who dont know what their friends want.
and maybe in my confusion,
I perhaps told you what to do.